This week has been a week full of blessings in a lot of ways. Lots of R&R, and this weather! What a gift! I’m writing this outside on our deck in shorts and a tee. This tiny little reddish bud just fell off our tree and onto my lap. I am excited to see our tree full of them! True, all those buds just turn into leaves that I have a love/hate relationship with come fall. But right now, they are reminders of new life. And after two big loses last year, new life reminders are always good.
We lost my cousin, Alicia, to cancer about this time last year. March 15th. A wife, a mother, daughter, sister, friend. Too young.
Also, March 11th this year was supposed to be my due date with my first baby. It’s hard to believe that we would be parents right now!
When we lost that baby in July last year, I really struggled. And then, we had to wait on God’s timing to find out we are expecting this July. I don’t think God chose my July due date on accident. I think He chose it to remind me that He knows what He’s doing. He takes away, but He also GIVES. From one July to the next.
I got to see that new gift up close and personal the other day. Little fingers and toes, heart fluttering. Baby had the hiccups and kept covering up its face with its arms. Looked perfect to me. My soul is happy about that.
Joy, loss, change, seasons, new creation…it reminds me of one of my favorite Nichole Nordeman songs, Every Season. She’s a beautiful singer/song writer. A poet, really.
My favorite lines:
“Even now in death, you open doors for life to enter. You are winter.
When everything that’s new has bravely surfaced
Teaching us to breathe.
And what was frozen through is newly purposed
Turning all things green.
So it is with You, and how You make me new
With every seasons change.
And so it will be, as you are recreating me.
Summer, autumn, winter, spring.”
I hope God has shown himself to you in mighty ways throughout the seasons this year. I know He has to us. Happy spring everyone!
“To every thing there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven.”
~Ecclesiastes 3: 1 KJV