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Burke Douglas: A Birth Story

It was an ordinary day. Except nothing was ordinary anymore. It hadn’t been for weeks. It felt like everything was cancelled. School had been canceled since March 15. Colton didn’t go to preschool every afternoon anymore and Stu worked from home a lot. The park and the library were closed. Restaurants were closed or drive-thru/curbside pick-up only. We watched church on Facebook Live on Sundays. We couldn’t get together with family and friends unless we stayed at least 6 feet…

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What Kind of A World Am I Bringing This Baby Into?

What kind of a world am I bringing this baby into?  I am 37 weeks and the practice contractions are practicing harder and harder every day. And as they get more intense, so does the news. More positive COVID tests in Nebraska. The first death in the county next to us. Visitor restrictions tighten up even tighter at the hospital where I will deliver.  My parents can’t bring my other kids up to the hospital to meet their new baby…

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Why I Give Blood: Power In the Blood

I recently started giving blood. So far, I’ve given 6 units. I have a Red Cross app on my phone that keeps track for me. Once I’ve given 8 units, I reach a special milestone. I don’t really know what that means. I don’t give blood expecting any kind of reward. It has always been enough to feel like I was making a difference. Maybe even saving a life. I’ve saved 6 lives? Wow, doing good really makes me feel…

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0 In Faith/ pregnancy loss

An Open Letter To Satan

An Open Letter to Satan

This is hate mail just to remind you of something important. You’re gonna lose! I am feeling especially salty today so prepare for an earful. I see you hurting my friends. I notice your attacks on my family. You think you can hide behind cancer, death, accidents, mental illness, and crime. But I know it’s you. You worm your way into marriages. You cause division in the work place, in governments, and yes, even in churches. Bring sin into the…

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Don’t Cling To Crusty Carrots

I distinctly remember a certain temper tantrum my son threw when he was about 15 months old. I put him in his high chair for breakfast and as he dug down into the seat, he found some crusty carrots leftover from the day before. He grabbed ahold of those crusty carrots and tried to shove them in his little mouth as fast as he could. But I knew that those carrots were not good for him. They were nasty. They…

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0 In Faith/ marriage

Fully Loved

Do you remember the dating days? When it’s fresh and new. You just can’t wait to learn all there is to know about this other person, especially all of those little details no one else knows. And you want them to learn all about you too, right? I mean, mostly. If we’re honest, we might be scared to let people see us as we truly are. Maybe I’m just speaking for myself, but I like to kind of gradually drop…

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Drowning Out The Storm

We had some stormy nights several weeks back. One of those nights, my son woke up scared and crawled in bed with us. We don’t normally allow him to sleep in our bed, so I was tempted to have my husband carry him back to his room. I didn’t want to start a bad habit. But, the thunder was really loud and he was scared, so I allowed it. He fell right back to sleep once he was snuggled up…

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I Can’t Imagine Raising Jesus

Usually I think of what a privilege Mary was given. Chosen by God to raise His only Son! But this year, I thought, man, what a colossal responsibility!

As I listened to a beautiful duet of “Mary Did You Know” at church this morning, those are the words that ran through my mind. I can’t imagine raising Jesus. Usually I think of what a privilege Mary was given. Chosen by God to raise His only Son! But this year, I thought, man, what a colossal responsibility! You see, this year, I have an infant and toddler. And this year, I am struggling with postpartum anxiety, depression, and post…

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Happy Anniversary! 4 years of being awesome…together 😉

Dear Stu,  Happy Anniversary! Since you are a numbers guy, I thought you might enjoy a special report of our significant numbers.  4 years of wedded bliss 😉 1 wonder dog, Maverick  541 days of you taking care of a pregnant wife (3 pregnancies)   1 baby with Jesus   2 special deliveries    2 kids to raise and watch grow 1 vehicle bought together  1 graduation ceremony and party (🎉) 3 different jobs for you, 2 big promotions 3…

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When My Baby Cries

When my baby cries, she starts off with a soft whining sound that slowly builds to full throttle and stays that way.  For a few hours.

When my baby cries, it’s almost supper time and I’m trying to get some meat thawing in the microwave. My toddler is hangry, bored, and missing Daddy. When my baby cries, I attempt to brown hamburger while my toddler follows at my feet whining “Hold me, Mommy. Mommy, hold me. Mommy!” When my baby cries, she starts off with a soft whining sound that slowly builds to full throttle and stays that way.  For a few hours. My blood pressure…

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