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An Open Letter To Satan

An Open Letter to Satan

This is hate mail just to remind you of something important. You’re gonna lose! I am feeling especially salty today so prepare for an earful. I see you hurting my friends. I notice your attacks on my family. You think you can hide behind cancer, death, accidents, mental illness, and crime. But I know it’s you. You worm your way into marriages. You cause division in the work place, in governments, and yes, even in churches. Bring sin into the…

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Don’t Cling To Crusty Carrots

I distinctly remember a certain temper tantrum my son threw when he was about 15 months old. I put him in his high chair for breakfast and as he dug down into the seat, he found some crusty carrots leftover from the day before. He grabbed ahold of those crusty carrots and tried to shove them in his little mouth as fast as he could. But I knew that those carrots were not good for him. They were nasty. They…

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Fully Loved

Do you remember the dating days? When it’s fresh and new. You just can’t wait to learn all there is to know about this other person, especially all of those little details no one else knows. And you want them to learn all about you too, right? I mean, mostly. If we’re honest, we might be scared to let people see us as we truly are. Maybe I’m just speaking for myself, but I like to kind of gradually drop…

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Drowning Out The Storm

We had some stormy nights several weeks back. One of those nights, my son woke up scared and crawled in bed with us. We don’t normally allow him to sleep in our bed, so I was tempted to have my husband carry him back to his room. I didn’t want to start a bad habit. But, the thunder was really loud and he was scared, so I allowed it. He fell right back to sleep once he was snuggled up…

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I Can’t Imagine Raising Jesus

Usually I think of what a privilege Mary was given. Chosen by God to raise His only Son! But this year, I thought, man, what a colossal responsibility!

As I listened to a beautiful duet of “Mary Did You Know” at church this morning, those are the words that ran through my mind. I can’t imagine raising Jesus. Usually I think of what a privilege Mary was given. Chosen by God to raise His only Son! But this year, I thought, man, what a colossal responsibility! You see, this year, I have an infant and toddler. And this year, I am struggling with postpartum anxiety, depression, and post…

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Happy Anniversary! 4 years of being awesome…together 😉

Dear Stu,  Happy Anniversary! Since you are a numbers guy, I thought you might enjoy a special report of our significant numbers.  4 years of wedded bliss 😉 1 wonder dog, Maverick  541 days of you taking care of a pregnant wife (3 pregnancies)   1 baby with Jesus   2 special deliveries    2 kids to raise and watch grow 1 vehicle bought together  1 graduation ceremony and party (🎉) 3 different jobs for you, 2 big promotions 3…

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When My Baby Cries

When my baby cries, she starts off with a soft whining sound that slowly builds to full throttle and stays that way.  For a few hours.

When my baby cries, it’s almost supper time and I’m trying to get some meat thawing in the microwave. My toddler is hangry, bored, and missing Daddy. When my baby cries, I attempt to brown hamburger while my toddler follows at my feet whining “Hold me, Mommy. Mommy, hold me. Mommy!” When my baby cries, she starts off with a soft whining sound that slowly builds to full throttle and stays that way.  For a few hours. My blood pressure…

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Just Doing Their Job

Today, I’m proud of my brother-in-law, Grand Island firefighter, Seth Ross. He climbed 110 flights of stairs. In full turnout gear. He was one of 343 firefighters who participated in the Denver Stair Climb. 110 flights of stairs because the World Trade Center was 110 stories tall. And 343 firefighters climbed because that is how many of New York’s finest we lost on September 11, 2001. Seth climbed for William S. O’Keefe, one of those 343. 343. That number is…

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We Named You For Her

Yes, we named you after two amazing women. But, I’ll never tell you that you have big shoes to fill. God made you unique.

Millie She was a head tossed back laughing. She was beautiful blue eyes with a mischievous twinkle. She was playing the organ and singing old hymns. She was rolling dough to make homemade noodles. She was getting chased by headless chickens but having the last laugh when she’d fry them up extra crispy. She was always on the go. On a lawn-mower, a 4-wheeler, an old pick-up truck. She didn’t quit. She worked hard on the farm for everything she…

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Update: The Great Lenz Migration and The Latest on Little Sis

I am so sorry it has been such a long time since I’ve written. Life overwhelmed me for a bit there. For those of you who missed it, this happened.  We moved away from our home in North Platte to put down roots in my hometown, Giltner. Stu is the new principal/superintendent at MY school. I think God likes to throw us funny life quirks that we never thought we’d see coming. Just to let us know He’s in charge…

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